Casual Opps.

Basically, I'd like to just point out if you were trying to offend me... It really didn't work. You pointed out the truth and since I knew it was the truth and agreed with it before you brought it up, your words didn't make an affect on me.

I don't have any classes today which rules. That means I got to sleep in. I slept in only until like 10:30am but still.. it's way better then waking up earlier.

Today my sister may be coming over. If she does that will be good. I could use some company and maybe get my head out of the gutter. I mean all I do is just sleep, eat, shower, school and repeat. It's very boring. I need to get out and stop being such a hermit. Plus, right now I'm super hungry but last night I ate so much. I had a burger, two vegeterian wraps, a bagel and a sandwich... Sup soon-to-be-fatty?

My modem doesn't work in my room for internet which really irritates me a lot. I really need to get on that but before I do that I should work really hard on making resumes. I'm thinking about part-time but yet full-time since I go to school part-time. But I guess for now I'm just gonna work part-time and then in the summer work-full time. I'm going to be working in Kitchener though most likely.

I realized a lot of shit has to change. So I'm kind of just going to keep my distance from people which I really mean this time. Only because it's just putting me back to the beginning which.. isn't going so well.

Thought of someone today and how I kind of miss our relationship but that's the past. I mean he meant a lot to me and I sure felt like I was in love.. but I wasn't. I was a complete wreck. I couldn't trust him and he brought fustration. As much as I loved being around him I hated not being around him because how he would lie to my face. I mean maybe that's the reason why I can't date because I get bullshitted everytime? As much as I'd love to date I can't. I can't commit to something that someone won't commit back.

But there is someone I do really have hard feelings for. I mean I've been kind of into them for half a year but I fucked up which was stupid but lately I have been doing that so not surprised but just disappointed. But now I've come realization there's nothing I can do to even fix the situation not even pouring my heart will help will only make me look stupid and unfortunately has happened. So I'm left with only needing to speak in person but I highly doubt that'll happen to so whatever.

I'm listening to Greg Laswell. He truly is one of my favorite artist. His voice is just touching and listening to him on repeat just makes my day.

I'm probably going to buy some clothes on Friday online from UO and AA. I need some new vnecks and a pair of leather flats that are so cute! Stoked and I'm thinking about a hair cut and maybe going blonde. I'm still debating but yeah, I'll end up doing that most likely.