You're my other half.

Where have you been? I miss you more than anyone. Why can't just be my sister and not my enemy. I think the worst of you. I don't stop thinking about how we were younger and we were best friends. We'd pretend to play bank and all those kids games. You were there for me when I OD and ended up in the hospital and you cared so much about me but now it seems like you don't at all. Sure I treat you like shit is seems its just because I'm straight up and you don't like what I have to say. I'm sorry. You went down a shitty path and If I could Id do anything to get you on the right path but I'm trying so hard and yet you're just not letting me. You're "best friend" is a piece of shit. I'm sorry but I would gladly love to spit in her face. You can hangout with your "gangster" friends but realize they're no good. You've had a shitty past yes I understand that fully and you went through hell by the whole fucked up situation but Britney you need to change now. Who are you? You're not the sister I once knew. I just wish you were the Britney I knew that had that long blond h air and went to school and had a job and had nice friends and was beautiful inside and out. I don't want you want me to say? Oh hey, I love you? I do but I can't say it because right now you're not you. You don't understand what you're doing wrong. Dad loves you so much and yet someday it may not seem like it but he does he loves us both so much and you just need to realize that.

Everyone says the inner beauty is what counts most,

What if they don't have that?

I'm on the phone with Emiry, We've been on the phone for three hours. It's 1:36am. I feel incredibly good right now.

Its actually amazing, I misjudged you so wrong. You actually apologized and never thought you were the type of guy to do that especially since I wasn't expecting an apology for anything.

So anyways, I'm hoping that tomorrow I can go get my hair done. I keep spending money that's not even money as if it's the only thing I know how to use.

So this week, I have to go to my school and get signed up for online courses and whatever. Bane is on Sunday, I actually couldn't care if I went or not. I don't even want to go but I made plans with Emily to go and to get bubble tea with Sebastian. We're going super early, so that means McDonalds as usual. I hope to see Brendon I miss him lots and don't want him to move to Barrie.

Speaking of moving, My mom wants to take off to BC. She's always wanted to get up and go. I'm not going if she does do it. But we're suppose to move to Guelph but if my mom changes her mind and goes and does that then it doesn't bother me. Emiry and I have been talking and thinking about getting a place in Toronto. Which would be awesome.

I haven't slept yet.

I'm tired as fuck.

So basically in the next month expect a lot of changes.

Wow

I came to realization that my mother and I are just a like.

That's not what I want.