Hello, Blogspot.

I'm in New Hamburg and its very boring.

Last night I hung with a few friends and we drank, things went from good to shit. It was one of the most scariest nights that I've experience. I won't get into detail because it's really no ones business but I just hope things are okay.

I ended up sleeping at Paisley's. She went somewhere though so Preston and I just went to bed and well I woke up drunk for like 5 minutes and realized that well.. I had a very bad hang over and just wanted to die. I ended up walking to Grandmas and bumping to my mother after so well that's how I got to bum fuck no where.

My mom went out on a date... I mean I really hope this dude isn't a piece of shit if this goes farther then a date. If it does go down hill and he's like the last douche bag... I'm pretty sure I'll never stick around again.

So now I'm sitting here very bored and my mom left me three cigarettes. I'm so bored to the point I think I'll get bored of smoking. I've done that twice today but anyways, I'm gonna go now. My lovely update is over.

Lost of words.

Things are getting worst.. Who I am? What am I doing with my life? And why?

Late on the updates.

So basically lately I've been up to nothing but cancelling things. I need to get my head in gear. I'm so lost and never stick to the things I say I'm going to do. Plus I've been feeling like complete shit.

Have you ever fell in someone and allowed something to happen you know you shouldn't have. I mean I just kind of feel used and my feelings are so confusing. I feel as if I was just another number and nothing else but that number. Not a person, a friend, or anything... Just that fucking one number that will mean nothing.

I put my heart into deep. I mean I'm no longer sane. I'm just a complete wreck. I said the whole I want him as a friend.. which I do but then there's just me yet feeling like I'll now for on be a cyber friend who he'll never talk to.

I don't know, I'm ranting on about stupid little things.

Anyways, I'm thinking of where to get my next tattoo but also am thinking of getting a job. I'm pretty sure this week I will ACTUALLY go out and look. I need something.

Sorry for lack of updates and for this one being retarded. Anywho I'm gonna go lay in bed and wait for who ever is downstairs to get the hellllll out cause I personally look as if the world just shit on me.