You're my other half.

Where have you been? I miss you more than anyone. Why can't just be my sister and not my enemy. I think the worst of you. I don't stop thinking about how we were younger and we were best friends. We'd pretend to play bank and all those kids games. You were there for me when I OD and ended up in the hospital and you cared so much about me but now it seems like you don't at all. Sure I treat you like shit is seems its just because I'm straight up and you don't like what I have to say. I'm sorry. You went down a shitty path and If I could Id do anything to get you on the right path but I'm trying so hard and yet you're just not letting me. You're "best friend" is a piece of shit. I'm sorry but I would gladly love to spit in her face. You can hangout with your "gangster" friends but realize they're no good. You've had a shitty past yes I understand that fully and you went through hell by the whole fucked up situation but Britney you need to change now. Who are you? You're not the sister I once knew. I just wish you were the Britney I knew that had that long blond h air and went to school and had a job and had nice friends and was beautiful inside and out. I don't want you want me to say? Oh hey, I love you? I do but I can't say it because right now you're not you. You don't understand what you're doing wrong. Dad loves you so much and yet someday it may not seem like it but he does he loves us both so much and you just need to realize that.